Confidence

Hey

I don't know whether should i say its co-incidental, but it seems like this past 1 week.. everything i do, points out to the lack of confidence i have. All started when i had to plan for a ubin trip for the sec 3s. Last thursday, i went ubin with some of my squadmates to recee the place before the actual thing....There..i noticed that they keep shooting all the flaws that i had in the plan, instead of actually giving ideas to improve it. Then, i sort of lost all the confidence that i had in me. I felt so lousy that my eyes were almost teary. Throats shaky. Felt as if they were not my squadmates...

Then i came back home and talked to shannon. He said, i must learn to take all "shooting" (so to speak). He cleary stated that i had to have more confidence too. I am a very shy, no confident person. I admit. But i am not proud of it. i want a change. I know i had to do something.

Then the following days everything i did reminded me of confidence, like going infront of a large group, standing infront of a group to share my views and even voicing out my own thoughts and so on.

Whenever i am with a group...you'd never hear me. I am that quite. Always been that way till now recently, i can feel that i am changing.

Hopefully to the better.......